jchryss

Things have been going well for me in terms of my ego.  In fact I had been proactive by praying for success in that regard.  Yesterday, however, I had the worst day.  I had several terrible blows to my ego and many smaller ones.  My practices were very helpful in controlling their effect on me but I couldn’t understand why God would challenge me so much.  I even prayed for an answer to that question.  I got my reply in terms of recollection of something I read from Gary Renard.  The universe will give you what you need to take the next step.  This terrible day was in fact a compliment that I am ready now to take a big step towards reaching salvation.  As Andre 3000 says in Revolver, “Embrace the pain.”  I other words the pain you feel is the ego and gratitude towards the pain, embracing of the pain is what is required at that moment.  I have come a long way from my biggest ego assault, my marriage.

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